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Thu, 25 Mar 2004 07:43:35 GMT

hahahhahahaaha

i havent done this journal shit in so long.

i am bombed, and no one will see this.

so fuck you guys.

my friend noah today said "i dont care about inner beauty, i just love fat chicks" it was funny.

haha.

lets see, what else what else.

i smoked opium for the first time the otehr day, its nice, very calming. my friends have a little bit left, so i will enjoy it for a couple more days. because of it my "non smoking" policy went out the window, but we will see.

i am downloading that jim carey movie, eternal sunshine, i hope it doesnt end up being shitty, or just having a shitty quality beacause of the download.

oh well.

im going to go pass out.

Mon, 09 Feb 2004 03:40:50 GMT

2 years ago today something terrible happened, and i am glad it happened

and 1 year ago something terrible was happening, and i still hate it

Wed, 31 Dec 2003 08:04:52 GMT

tonight has been quite a night. mushrooms for the 3rd time, and a lot has been realized in my mind, and right now other than sleeping, all i know is that tomorrow i am going to get completely shitfaced out of my fucking mind.

GOOOOOOOOOOOOOD NIGHT

Mon, 24 Nov 2003 22:10:15 GMT

i feel empty

Sun, 19 Oct 2003 20:04:53 GMT

itunes is amazing.

the end.

Tue, 09 Sep 2003 16:31:02 GMT

nice... i am smart.

a while back i predicted that when thursday came out with their new cd they would be all over MTV. and now they are on mtv's 'the leak' where you can hear the whole album online. so now their fan base is going to blow up and everyone will hate them in the scene, its funny how fickle people are even if music is good they arent going to like it because now thursday is going to attract a whole new audience and everyone in the scene feels like music belongs to them... its sad.

added in:
i just got an odd email... someone who i have no idea who it is sent me an email saying i am on the skate and surf site in a picture from when thursday played.

http://www.skateandsurffest.com/photos2003/thursday04.jpg

they said they think its me next to geoff's left hip(right side of the picture)... and it might be, becasue i was right about where that person is and i think i had dom's coheed shirt on which was black... so i dunno.

some good shit right here

Mon, 08 Sep 2003 15:36:33 GMT

everyone has to check this shit out.

http://www.mobilefrenzy.com/

you need to download a program called bit torrent... which i believe there is a version for mac's for all you mac users... and what the site is, is you can download entire cds so easily, without searching for track lists and downloading each song individually. there is not a large selection of music, but there is deff a good amount. barely anything on the hardcore/emo/indy/punk front, so the majority of those who mmight possibly read this wont give a damn, but still check it out, you can get tv shows and movies too. its pretty fucking cool.

all you do is click what you want and tell it where do download to and it does a real quick download thing, which sets up the tracks and everything, and then it downloads all the songs, its fucking sweet. its like p2p, without the bullshit programs like kazaa.

yeah, college is nice. lots of pot, lots of alcahol. fun people, easy classes. im goin home this weekend possibly. anna said she would come get me. that would be nice. i miss my bed real bad. i love my bed. and i miss my puppy dog.

oh well, thats all i suppose.

Fri, 05 Sep 2003 04:12:06 GMT

i dont know what to do with my life any more. things just turn around so fast, i feel so great one second and like shit the next. im happy then mad. i know exactly why but ive been through this shit before, there is nothing i can do about it, any of the possible answers will make me feel even more like shit any how.

i miss the way things were, i miss having some fucking certainty with something, now everything is so new and undiscovered that i dont know what the fuck to do. i want to fucking just go home and go to sleep, i want to be able to hold anna again, i didnt think i would miss her this much, but i do, im such a fucking panzy. i can never deal with shit. i am always cool til it happens and then i just fucking break down and start feeling like shit... why couldnt i have freaked out before i left and got it out of my system... not that i am actually freaking out but i just feel so fucking sick, so ready to puke at any point, and this fucking food is giving me the shits too. i wish i knew how things were going to end up so i could just get to it and stop having this uncomfortable uncertainty about everything. im afraid to just live my life, i feel like i need to plan things out before hand, but its not fucking possible sometimes.

i need sleep, i have class at 830. i wont fall asleep though. FUCK.

Wed, 03 Sep 2003 21:21:17 GMT

yeah.... yorktown fucking sucks. its official. i always thought it sucked while i was there, and now that i am gone i deff. realize that that town licks my asshole.

if you use kazaa, then stop, stop right now. use kazaa lite. its exactly like kazaa but without all the bullshit pop ups and spyware and all that shit that no one fucking wants.

i was hungover for my first day of classes. i thought i was going to puke in calc. but i found out that attendance is not required in calc and all the work is done on some website, so considering i already took calc i think i am going to go once a week. thats a lie. i am going to class, im not taking shortcuts, cuz once i start its going to be all downhill and ill fuck up my scolarship and that would fucking blow ass.

so everything is coming together. anna actually smoked before i did, but last night i managed to smoke a joint and a bole of blueberry. also i met some chick last night and she knows a dealer who i will be meeting tonite. and she has a fake id and a roommate with a car. so fucking ay. shit be comin together.

i checked all my emails that i havent seen in like a week and i got one from the thursday mailer or whatevre about new songs and i listened to them, and they are damn fucking good.bravo thursday... bra-fucking-vo.

some insight

Tue, 26 Aug 2003 22:18:00 GMT

4 days and counting.
my laptop came, i am happy.

ok... so for the insight:
i saw this "art" book in my parents room and glanced through it quickly and most of it was just photos. now to me thats not art. photographs are not art... they may be artsy... but not actually art. where is the art in it, your just capturing something. now dont get me wrong... there is an art to taking good pictures, but photos are not art. i dunno, thats just me, im not a big art fan to begin with.

im almost all set with packing... its fucking wierd its like moving away from your own life. everything so blank and desolate in your room as if you are dead and your parents are just too damn upset to get rid of all your stuff yet. everything is quiet and perfect looking (though my room is still pretty messy still). its just so bizarre to think that in 4 days my room will not be my home any more.

Sat, 23 Aug 2003 22:21:26 GMT

so its been a while...

college is coming. two of my close friends are already gone. i have one more week. its going to be real fucking sweet, i know it.

my laptop comes monday (hopefuly). its going to be fucking sweet.

i stil need to get some new clothes. mainly underwear and socks.

Thu, 17 Jul 2003 16:07:52 GMT

so far summer has been fucking nice.

ive realized a lot this summer:
+ppl are immature
+teenage life in suburbia is bullshit... no matter what, so its not worth caring about.
+"the scene" is so fucking fake and stupid... its all a showoff contest as much as any one who is part of it would completely deny anything like that. the music is real good but its not really about music any more its about how many shows you can cram into a week regardless of if you liek who is playing or not, clothing... cuz if your not wearing "scene like" clothing your a fake, and who has a new cd before it comes out
+money is nice, becuase money=drugs
+drugs are nice

thats it.

ps- no offence to any one in a band, because then you still get the point of a music scene

Thu, 03 Jul 2003 19:20:54 GMT

hmmm... what has been going on with me?

im loaded now thanks to my grad party. im going to buy rap cd's today, becuase i need some.

i cant wait to leave this town. this town sucks so bad... if i had to go to college close to home and commute i would probably hang myself.

Wed, 25 Jun 2003 19:50:30 GMT

im graduating.

nice.

Fri, 20 Jun 2003 19:43:09 GMT

one amazing year. hopefully many more will follow.

Sun, 15 Jun 2003 23:41:16 GMT

the time of my life. thats all that needs to be said about that.

im a lobster. and it makes my eyes look very blue.

-dan

Wed, 11 Jun 2003 02:18:19 GMT

10 to 1 odds, i bet you that my life is better than yours right now.

1 more day. i love life, and anna, and my friends, and everything that is going on right now. everything is perfect.

tom daley just said this to me online "dan, you've been a good fried these past few years and i want to thank you for that" and it really hit me in a soft spot i guess because i started to cry a little bit. and i am just realizing that i am going to lose some friends that i am very close to right now and that sucks, because i really dont want to because my friends are great and i am glad they have been there for me and that i now i know that at least for tom i was there for him too.

college is going to be so fucking scary. im going to cope fine, but its just so new, i am so scared, i am going to be so home sick as much as i like to tell myself i am not going to be.

this weekend will be one for the books.

peace and love

Tue, 10 Jun 2003 01:40:00 GMT

yo dogg...

2 days left. everything rules. math and econ and physics final tomorrow, and physics again on wed. but its ok.

i have lots of pot, and soon i will have a lot of alcahol and i will consume all of it in seaside.

prom is going to be great, i like dressing up all fancy like.

dangerfields called and everything is all set.

ive been smoking more pot that i had in the past few months, i just dont care any more about getting caught, i just do it in my room and my parents are just downstairs. its nice.

peace and love

Mon, 02 Jun 2003 22:14:43 GMT

i havent done homework at home since october. my bag hasnt even been in my house since christmas break... and today, with only seven days of shcool left, i am doing homework at home. all this is thanks to procrastination and the fact that i actually have a lot to do, which is the first time this has happened all year.

i am all set for colege. i registered for classes, i am taking the four classes i have to take for engineering (calc 1, principles of engineering, engineering design, and english) and either psych or philosophy, which ever one i get into, and if i get into both i'll tkae psych.

paece out home slice.

Wed, 28 May 2003 17:01:46 GMT

who now has all four deftones cds... i do, thus i am happy

Tue, 27 May 2003 01:21:32 GMT

i am very happy i bought around the fur. quality music right there. now i just have to work on getting the new one. and i suppose adrenaline while i am at it.

i wonder what its like to be autistic, it must be really fucking wierd. i bet its like being in the movie 'being john malkovich' where you can just watch what someone else is doing, and you have no control over the situation. or something like that, or maybe thats what its like being either psychotic or retarted, either of the two i guess, it makes sense for either one.

some people need to grow up. like kids in college who still act like they are in highschool. people like that really need to just look at themselves and realize that they quit with all the bullshit and just grow up and act like the mature one in a situation.

bruce almighty was pretty funny.

i have only 11 more days of fucking highschool. holy shit. this is it i am getting out of this asshole of a town and finally getting away from all the bullshit and drama that surrounds this fucking town. ...that was phat, i think it just hit me right now about high school ending, its all hititng me and i am so excited, and i just cant wait now to get this summer started and move on from all that fucking pricks in the highschool.

hot hot heat wasnt as odd as i thought it was. i dunno why i thought it was so strange the first time i heard it. its just like odd music with a dude with a funky voice, and it works together nicely. its the type of music i can enjoy listening to, but i would never go buy a cd on my own, or even wish i had it.

i havent listened to 311 in a long time. i am going to tomorrow.

this friday i register for my classes at hartford. its going to be good. in the engineering school they pretty much tell you what classes to take, so i can only pick one on my own, and i think i am taking italian renisiance(spelling), and i htink its going to be a really phat class, i dont know why.

h&m jeans look really nice, but i hear they dont hold up very well over time. i saw a real nice pair of jeans in american eagle today, their pants are usually fairly ordinary but this pear of jeans was nice, and they were like clearance or some shit so they were like 30 bucks so i think i am going to go back and buy them this week. wow, i feel like a fucking girl, talking about jeans like this.

i want a real phat puma jacked, and some saucauny's (spelling again) and i want them in blue and yellow cuz i saw them on someone or in a store, adn tehy look real cool, and i still want etnies but now i am not caring about the color, i just want etnies now cuz the color i wanted isnt made any more.

im going to make mad cash this summer while i am working and for graduation.

my money estimate is as follows for my graduation:
anunt lynne - 150
aunt kathy - 100
uncle georege - 100
the jonas' - 150
my grandma - 300
the frosts - 100
im going to make mad cash.

thats all in my life for now i guess

-dan

Sat, 24 May 2003 18:00:01 GMT

dutches red is sick nasty;
A) i didnt even know zander played bass, forget playing it amazing
B) crumm is a really great screamer/singer
C) ian is a sexy beast on the drums
D) frank's stuff kept breaking and he still played great
E) rich just jumped all over that place and it was good, but i couldnt hear what he was playing but i am sure it was really good too.

crumms brother is a massive massive human.

A+ guys

other news:
i didnt get payed for working two saturdays ago, so now my next check will have an extra 50 bucks on it.

i heard the deftones cd for 10 seconds and almost creamed my pants.

i need some ointment for my o-ring

-dan

Wed, 21 May 2003 01:17:48 GMT

how many days of school left?...15, but 14 for me (hahaha)

whos happy?... everyone

whos sick of this entry format?... i am

so yeah, the last 11 months have been quite swell minus some heartache and what not. over all i give it a a-, but thats only because of the month of febraury.

my room is really hot, so i turned my AC on, and its making it nice, i love when my room is cold.

wow, i am taking this journal somewhat seriously as of late, i am kinda proud of myself and kind of disappointed.

Tue, 20 May 2003 22:01:28 GMT

who wants the new deftones cd?... i do

who STILL wants around the fur?... i do

can anyone help me out on around the fur?... let me know

will i get the new deftones cd?... yes

when?... when i am not poor

fin

Mon, 19 May 2003 02:16:40 GMT

good weekend.

friday-
went to city, and got a bowl. and my friends got a bong.

saturday -
beer b q, at doms
alone time with anna
smoking time with dustin

on saturday i named my bowl 'po man'. because a while ago there was this kid joe wo used to live here and everyone called him po, and he did lots of coke. so one day he said "im po man the snowman", and my bowl looks like a snow man so its nice.

next weekend my friend is giving me percoset, and i am going to take it, and it will be nice.